MDMA for ADHD

 https://www.additudemag.com/psychedelic-therapy-mdma-psilocybin/?utm_source=eletter&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=treatment_march_2024&utm_content=030724&goal=0_d9446392d6-138d3ad97a-300024141

Oh that’s timely, an in depth examination of how the psychedelic revolution in psychiatric medicine might come to benefit those with ADHD. As many as 50% of pwADHD also suffer from a Personality Disorder, 50% have an Anxiety Disorder & between 10-22% have co-morbid Bipolar Disorder, the developmental trauma burden in those with ADHD is likely to be pretty substantial.

A word to the wise though: you literally only get 4 chances per year to use MDMA without badly screwing up your Dopamine system longer term & that’s assuming that your MDMA is pure, when less that half of the street drug contains any actual MDMA at all. MDMA only produces these powerful trauma remissions, 75% in studies experienced full long lasting remission, in conjunction with 8 hour therapy sessions of a particular kind. 

Methylene Blue

So the subject of this substance popped up in one of my natural health e-newsletters specifically being touted for its rather powerful yet harmless electron donating, mitochondria enlivening all round anti bac & general panacea. Realising I’d heard it mentioned recently on mental health chat boards I did some reading about it in respect to that aspect & I was not disappointed.

Here is the first paragraph from - but the whole article is well well worth the visit 👇👇👇

https://blubrain.co.uk/methylene-blue-brain-health-effects/

As you delve deeper into the world of brain health, you may have come across a fascinating compound called methylene blue.

This versatile dye has a history that dates back over a century, with applications ranging from treating malaria to enhancing cognitive function.

In recent years, researchers have been exploring its potential effects on neurodegenerative diseases like Alzheimer’s and mood disorders such as depression and anxiety.

With this growing body of evidence, it’s time for you to take a closer look at how methylene blue might serve others by supporting brain health and improving quality of life.

In this article, we’ll delve into the science behind methylene blue’s neuroprotectiveproperties and its ability to enhance cognitive function.

We’ll also discuss its potential applications in addressing Alzheimer’s disease and mood disorders while touching on safety considerations and side effects.

As we explore ongoing research efforts and clinical trials in this field, you’ll understand how this fascinating compound could play a pivotal role in promoting brain health for those who need it most.

So sit back, relax, and prepare to immerse yourself in the world of methylene blue – your knowledge could be invaluable in helping others achieve optimal mental well-being!

So obviously as a lover of experimenting, I’m all in! Despite being essentially a pharmaceutical compound it’s old enough, simple enough & renown enough for me to consider working with for a while. Also, I really liked the balance of taking Saffron with its natural orange red pigment along side Methylene Blue with its blue jeans dye eccentricity. So we will see. It’s definitely use with caution, in tiny doses & if possible with the oversight of a naturopath or similar but here’s some links to some more serious studies.

I was particularly interested in the dementia & Alzheimer reversal research as many of my cognitive symptoms from damage from Bipolar episodes, 3 decades of untreated episodes is not funny & im keen to continue getting more functional brain back. Much I do contributes to this mission but I’m always keen to find more.

Major reasons to avoid MB would be SSRI use, renal or cardiac insufficiency- of course you must do your own homework if you have any serious health issues.

https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/31144270/

https://psychnews.psychiatryonline.org/doi/10.1176/appi.pn.2016.pp8a5

https://primehealthdenver.com/methylene-blue/#:~:text=Recent%20studies%20suggest%20that%20methylene,brain%2Dboosting%2C%20nootropic%20supplement.

Bilateral Stimulation Music Therapy

Similarly the same website has a short article describing Bilateral stimulation music therapy which as I just said is kind of an aural, passive form of EMDR I’ve been using it recently. Although it’s related to Isochronic Tones which I’ve been using a lot for a couple of years now, I still use wake up tones most days, also peak tones, that’s Gamma mostly or high Alpha to help concentrate on completing tasks, it is a different angle though.

I see Bilateral Stimulation audio as diminishing nervous system dysfunction exactly like EMDR does (EMDR is most effective targeted by a trauma informed therapist but diy micro EMDR for daily triggers & general dysphoria is absolutely valid) whereas I’ve not found the same remedial long term affects with Isochronic tones, though they remain invaluable for coping with my day to day Audhd challenges which are more deeply hardwired than my trauma based nervous system issues.

https://www.ementalhealth.ca/Waterloo-Regional-Municipality/Bilateral-Music-for-Anxiety-Stress-and-Trauma/index.php?m=article&ID=84502

Here’s a screen grab.

Anyway, I’m having powerful results with Bilateral Stim music atm so wanted to share.

Neat Poly Vagal Graphic

 Poly Vagal theory is so damn helpful - I’ve had great success with my over all nervous system integrity with some really simple exercises, also the fascia release from Human Garage that I posted - I did it as proscribed a couple of times, def felt benefits then adapted it to a simplified version I can do daily or when I’m anxious - fabulous stuff 

Dr Ettensohn of Heal NPD - 2 videos

 

The first video is word to both pwNPD as well also their ‘victims’ - something that does not really happen on the big mainstream channels about Narcissistic abuse. I think it’s a really vital & relevant conversation that should be happening so much more on these hugely popular accounts.

If you don’t have damaged or porous boundaries you are impregnable to Narcissistic abuse; toleration of abuse is demonstrating to you where you are porous, flawed & therefore vulnerable to the continuance of abuse.

If you are always looking for the chink of positivity & the lesson in life you might be able to see it as a service the abusive relationship has done for you by rudely awakening you up to your own woundedness by finding it, targeting it & thus amplifying it. When you failed to protect yourself by walking away it must be assumed that you were experiencing the abuser as significantly more valuable ‘to you’ than your own self, including your own self preservation, self respect, self esteem & individuation. A state of deep delusion if there ever was one, a situation that inevitably results in more harm & new trauma.

I don’t know if my ex, 20 yrs my senior, 5 yr deeply traumatic relationship ending when I was 33 had NPD, he certainly had several traits but he had been in many & varied deep therapeutic self development/self reflective environments for most of his adult life due to his constant anxiety & inner sense of insecurity. Chances are that he was a semi conscious NPD with complex trauma working on himself to my undx BPD & complex trauma - I certainly experienced him as more valuable over & above my own self esteem, self care etc. it was a very distinct experience because I consciously knew he did not serve or support me on any level whatsoever but I was emotionally unable to detach. A very clear cognitive dissonance right there. 

The mass Narc abuse education, release & healing from that that’s occurring atm seems to be a communal throwing off of an old school deep secret in society & families passed down, of a somewhat normalised state of trauma. The Narcissist themselves hugely being the bearer of as well as the detector & distributor of trauma. That said, only those with significant unconscious unexamined damage can succumb to such manipulations for any length of time.

By its unnatural anti-life nature, late stage capitalist society has engendered generations of deeply unconscious wounded, highly stressed parents who go on to deeply wound their own children if they do not break the cycle somehow. Cycle breaking time is upon us, if ever there was one, it is about now. 💪🩷

Dr Ettensohn on Cluster B Depersonalisation & Derealisation

Well kinda sorta, partially.

I relate to some of this, historically, with BPD in remission. He’s got a real gift for reframing things to make them less threatening. And it’s details like this & an attitude of compassion like this that open up the quieter, semi conscious suffering just under the surface of all Cluster B 🙌

Easy Life Repair Strategies via Brain Re-Programming - Bruce Lipton PHd talks to Dr Rangan Chatterjee

I’ve followed Bruce’s renown work for decades now. A scientist with a spiritual edge, he is my kinda guy.

This is such a long conversation at 1.5hrs but it’s very relaxed with such a congenial pair of progressive educators. Cutting to the chase though, in summary changing your earliest dysfunctional brain programs is still possible at any age using the hypnotic window of falling asleep as your brain naturally drops to Theta brainwaves, being the most opportune moment to use positive messaging in a subliminal, suggestion or wtv you like on the target areas of your life that are badly aspected due to childhood.

Also, i use Theta Isochronic Tones for deep relaxation purposes so adding suggestion elements then again would be great, either reading positive statements, positive material or choosing music for a source you trust that already incorporates both. 

Secondly, Bruce suggests using the conscious mind to interrupt the flow of robotic sub-conscious programming as much as possible in day to day life & to be fair that was my main route out of those ones that made my life a misery, you know what I mean. Pre- dx my BPD scripts where so deranged I just had to watch & be determined to do nothing whatsoever until the storm had subsided, not even knowing what I was dealing with for so long & yes, I used affirmations & had positive suggestions & reminders dotted around the house.

To be honest being in constant nervous system pain for decades I was always instigating a barrage of self help modalities & I think in retrospect very many of them had a positive & long lasting impact.

The big guns have been in the last few yrs: Isochronic Tones, diy micro EMDR, Fascia Release, Somatic Release & Poly Vagal stretches have been the most potent but there are so many others that have contributed & still are. Too many to list right now.

Bruce also signposts the listener to his website http://www.brucelipton.com for a list of fast track energy psychology tools.

Oh here you go - https://www.brucelipton.com/other-resources/#belief-change yes a truly fabulous link list of mind tech - a very imposing list in fact & I assume much of it expensive & you know me, if it’s free like EMDR or walking I’m all over it - all the same, if I was still in need of big change to my unconscious programming I would seek reviews on some of these fast track mind techs for sure. 

Mainstream medicine is incredibly regressive in several areas of human health & just really slow in other areas &, with a pharmaceutical thrown at all ills, deeply dysfunctional.

7 Ways to Heal Trauma

These guys - Dr Rangan Chatterjee talking to the amazing Dr Bessel Van Der Kolk of The Body Keeps the Score legendary fame.

This is a long chat/discussion at 1.5 hrs but I ended up enjoying it so much I felt to share it. 

I particularly love Bessel casually exposing the corporate corruption & biases that cannot help but occur in the fields of science & research precisely because Money is necessary to pursue anything with potential & therefore Money gets to chose what moves. This is something I’ve been aware of for a very long time & seems absolutely obvious & yet far too many on the political left are still sadly completely oblivious & unwilling to explore the unobscured facts of.

I picked up the fact this week that 70% of research is privately funded & overwhelmingly brings back a result favourable to its financial sponsor - just start there if you want to explore that subject, it’s fascinating & terrifying in equal measure & will put you off many common prescription drugs for life.

Walking as Soft EMDR

EMDR works by the left right movement of the pupils of the eyes to either side, this movement repeated effects a change in focus in brain activity, shifting from emotional centres to logic & processing centres, this facilitates rapid processing of emotional pain when it is held in somatic/ body awareness.

Well, the same goes for the left right emphasis of walking/running to a lesser/softer degree, whilst holding body awareness & equally a crossed arm chest tap is also equivalent. 

For myself, holding sensation in as gentle awareness as possible is the key although I have found it still works to reduce emotional charge/ mental mayhem even without accessing physicalised feelings, so that’s really helpful for deeper numb stuff. 

So, this all explains rather nicely why walking/running, the natural forwards motion of our bodies through space is designed to also deconstruct Trauma semi-automatically - just requiring some body consciousness to fulfil that. Isn’t that cool! 😅😊

Dr Pete Levine - Beyond Theory Podcast S2 episodes 13 & 14

I read Dr Levine’s book Healing Trauma in the autumn last year. It’s a very small concise book with simple exercises at the back - I recommend having it to anyone with any long standing mental/nervous system dysfunction inc problems with addiction etc. It simply sets out the basic premise of Somatic Therapy for healing trauma. 

Peter is a very early pioneer of body first trauma therapy & remains an exceptional resource for healing mental health issues of all types.

I love listening to Dr Levine and could listen all day but I know not everyone wants or needs all the nuts & bolts & just wants to get in the car & go so I will be finding some short, more potent videos to post here ASAP but these are wonderful in their own right. The 2 podcasts make an hour so maybe listen whilst driving or something & just let it wash over you as a subject. 🩷🤗✊

How to Move a Depression - Managing Low Mood

That’s a lovely optimistic title right there & as a person with well over 2 decades of experience in ‘not’ being able to shift a depression I’m going to share what ultimately did work for me eventually with my long undx Bipolar 1 plus concurrent BPD dysphoric fug. 

There are some basic principles that are a bottom line that everyone with a tendency to low mood should know off by heart:

Walk, stretch, move as much as you are able. Depression at its core is your Nervous System in freeze mode due to unresolved past stress/trauma or present time conflict. Alternatively, I believe a short depression can simply be a natural reset button for a persons life, with chilling out & looking inwards, journaling, getting talk therapy, developing self regard/care, all important adjuncts, even so movement is vital.

Self massage, scalp, shoulders & neck, get a massage gun & work on anywhere that’s stiff or sore, if you can afford it get massages from someone else.

Drink water - Dehydration is surprisingly common as well as surprisingly depressing. 

Be really careful with stimulants & sugar; both have an exaggerated downer effect after the upper

Alcohol is the most dangerous thing for low mood & yet so commonly folk lean on it only to make themselves feel worse, exaggerate & prolong a mood issue unnecessarily.

For myself I find that a long sustaining protein & healthy fat preferential diet is anti-depressant whilst high carbs lowers my mood like nothing else but I am a protein type - so it’s time to find out your macronutrient type. Go here.

High EPA Fish Oil, high dose B vits & Magnesium supplements if your normal diet is a bit nutrient weak. Some depressions can be shifted by this alone plus walking daily.

Getting daylight hitting your eyes before midday everyday is vital in any depression, stop telling your body to hibernate because it will & you will be 6 months in before you realise. Stupefied, groggy depression is no joke, you just can’t be bothered to kill yourself so there’s that advantage over more energised forms but no, it’s a pointless waste of your life & it can be prevented.

Ok that was my ‘everyone everywhere should know this’ list.

So this is my extra-ordinary list for the extraordinary depressions or recurrent low mood/depressive tendencies of Bipolar, BPD, NPD & as well as other disorders.

So all the above apply to this group too obviously.

The Special Forces List

Mindfulness - when dealing with a Personality Disorder or any severe mental health condition your very first job is simply self observation; of thoughts, of words, of deeds, of your inner responses to all of those, as well as external events & as far as possible to what’s going on under your skin in your real human body self. Be suspicious, be kind but curious of the motives underpinning your wants, needs, desires & moods. Basically be interested in yourself, your machinations without too much, if any judgement.

It’s vital to learn to notice when you are dissociating & then how to make yourself &/or others around you as safe as possible. It is not always obvious that you have dissociated, a hallmark of some types of dissociation is extreme mood even personality shifts. Sussing it out is simply a skill you build with use. Start with 10 mins a day, ultimately you will want to make it your baseline state. One of the big gifts of mental illness is the degree of self mastery required to overcome our unconscious wounds is so massive that we end up far more self aware than others who have not had to travel so far to occupy themselves.

I’m open to the idea that Cluster B PDs are essentially Dissociative Disorders with a range of dysfunctional ‘alters’ stepping up to further unhelpfully ffff up your life - mindfulness gives you the space to watch this process from the pure nonjudgmental consciousness aspect of yourself & from here you develop self protective stoicism in the face of these destructive inner forces.

Deep consolation in nature/relating to animals - this is vital for severe mental illness. Without this I wouldn’t be here. I really like the concept that being in nature is being in your own true nature on an unconscious or semi-conscious level. It is an innately healing teacher, it is nourishing in a deep gestational way. I often meditate in nature on how for the entire history of life on Earth & still today for the vastest majority of creatures, death primarily occurs with your face in the earth, going home. Wtv your spiritual belief or not, earth is what made you out of stardust & you are always on your way back.

Absolute stoicism - this is an indispensable quality to develop. When I was missed/wrong dx for my Bipolar 1 in 2008, it was absolutely my only option. I had no choice bar death but to simply accept that I was subjected to seemingly endless mental, emotional & nervous system pain & distortion for reasons that I could not see or know, seemingly meaninglessly, and essentially I was to take it on the chin. 

More movement: normal levels of movement work for normal levels of low mood but with extraordinary mental/emotional/nervous system aberration the more low cortisol exercise/movement modalities you can manage the better. The main caveat being not high stress stuff, not high cortisol as so much gym based exercise programs ultimately are, these have a place it’s just not in day to day depression management. You are learning to self sooth, to move & stretch your body despite feeling miserable & then watch your stoicism grow & your mood shift. (some higher stress exercise is acceptable, beneficial actually but I’m driving home a particular point) - your nervous system has habituated crisis, low cortisol exercise rebuilds it’s integrity.

Support is vital, though I failed to get any for the most part & im still here so there is that 🤷‍♀️ I developed a kind of deep stoicism in the face of permanent overwhelming adversity coming from my own wrecked nervous system, a cPTSD/PTSD overlay, cognitive impairment due to rolling Bipolar episodes & the permanent dysphoric core of undx BPD. 

I’m going to mention ADHD plus Autism briefly here - it gets ridiculous, all of my layers, but in some ways my autism made me a more innately honest pwBPD, which is the route out for all PDs & my ADHD drove my desire to get well as well as my massive self study, passion centered on amassing knowledge of natural health specifically for mental health. 

If you can get proper support please do take it, it will make healing so much faster. 

A note - The dysphoric core of the Personality Disorders

The semi-permanent, uneasy fug that permeates the feeling sense, the sense of self of a person with a currently active personality disorder requires additional approaches. Of course all of the above are helpful, but there is more. All PDs are deep early trauma created splits in the body mind self, sapping the host of vitality as well as driving the need for further pain causing drama in their lives, mainly as attempts at obfuscation & distraction, both from the self as well as others. Drama as disguise of trauma in fact is a great descriptor.

But above all, being free of the dysphoric core myself now, I feel that it is the identification of it then your dis-identification with it that and hastens its demise. Simple as that. Once you decide that being in an off mood/state most of the time is unacceptable, an untenable way of life, this is when you dis-identify from both the feeling state & the often dysfunctional mental states that accompany it. Mindfulness is your key, stoicism is the lock, open the prison door & fly free. 

Special therapy recommends go to; EMDR, diy self style or with a therapist, the extremely simple Somatic Healing concepts of Dr Peter Levine, BrainSpotting is another modern eye mvt related modality to explore, IFS Internal Family Systems, also see ACT, Acceptance & Commitment Therapy at the same link there, Poly-Vagal exercises, see side bar link

There is more, there is always so much more to explore when you need to heal something, when you want to heal something is more precisely accurate. I remember friends with depression saying “nothing works” & they would always be saying that before they had even given one thing a decent shot.

Perception of time slows down excruciatingly in real depression, making us even more irritated & impatient to be well as soon as possible as well as casting the convincing illusion that the depressive state is endless. Bodily metabolism slows down too as if to hibernate, making effort feel impossible, creating an unbearable cross purpose of drives. Building a day to day routine that deconstructs that equation is the path out - then adding a therapeutic modality that works for you, that builds you a new nervous system. 

Musing at NPD, BPD & Cluster B Experts in General

We are inundated with so many ‘experts’ in NPD & BPD right now, often usually mostly coming from ‘mind first’ schools of traditional psychiatry & psychology, mostly with extremely damning views & visions of most of the personality disorders & their likely trajectory though a persons lifetime.

I’m going to take a less usual stance to the mainstream opinion about the terminability of the Cluster B personality disorders of which I draw ideas from right across the wider smorgasbord of thought & indeed modalities of healing to draw a more positive picture for sufferers.

When you factor in the intrinsic reality that the 4 Cluster B personality disorders: ASPD, BPD, HPD & NPD, are basically groupings of behaviours & symptoms that have been partitioned fairly arbitrarily with the agreed general acceptance that for instance, BPD is up to 40% co-morbid, or shall we say intermingled symptom & behaviour wise with its cousin NPD. I’m not going to ferret around getting data on the commonality of the others in cluster b groupings as this is the particular data point that I’m going to centre my thoughts around because I have hands on personal experience of it.

What’s coming up for me is that the sheer wall of negativity that is facing pwNPD & BPD when dealing with this huge mass of material put out by ‘experts’ atm, yes it may be necessary to shock locked in harmful Narcs & Borderlines to seek some kind of change to their inner & outer machinations but but but it’s absolutely lending no hope, no escape to pwNPD even as a possibility & i, as a person with BPD actually in remission, stand vividly against this info onslaught that is occurring. 

It’s also occurring against pwBPD of course but because there are now, quite newly, significant numbers of remissions known to be occurring both with & without any kind of therapy, within this group, as I’ve said before, often times the map plus some genuine support has shown itself to be enough to halt & retreat the urge to destructive behaviour.

My point is, & it’s directed to all the highly qualified Drs that are seen as valid sources knowing it all on these subjects, these PDs, is that your uniform prediction of the high likely failure in Cluster B people in recovery is erroneously based on therapy models that place the separate mind & conscious reasoning as the access point to change, when, coming from a wholistic stance, i don’t find that much can change from interventions at that level alone. 

Also this negative position stands in stark contrast to the fact that simultaneously at this time the immensity of new psychological ground being won by millions of us through the ‘body first’ schools of healing; poly-vagal, somatic, EMDR, fascia release, low cortisol exercise, neurofeedback, nutraceuticals, Classical Chinese medicine & Ayurveda to highlight the most well know & well documented examples of body first healing modalities that have the capacity to assist in the transformation of the nervous system & by this the psychology of a person.

 

So, have hope Cluster B, have hope & yet take action. You’ve got a whole new sense of self to win, to build & I’m not saying it will be easy, I’m just saying that they, the so called experts, literally are just talking heads with their archaic talk therapy that EMDR alone, with or without a therapist has the capacity to undercut time required to experience positive change by 10x. 

10 times as fast = one session of EMDR with its direct line to the nervous system is worth 10 expensive sessions talking round & round your monkey mind, slipping & sliding around in the lonesome yet genuinely endless mental realms & often completely detached from the very body-mind you were born with, that is the real you, those that were detached from each other literally by trauma, not by thought, it was pre-thought every time with all Cluster B so we must absolutely endeavour to treat the trauma first.

I’m going to reproduce my last blog piece from my old blogger on here because while it was perfect as the last words on sonjaconscious.blogspot.com it explains very simply the lightness of true self hood & how attainable that is, with a willingness to be embodied & to just become aware of when you are not. It’s that simple. It need’s resolve, it needs deep genuine desire that you might have to conjure with your imagination at first - Cluster B are imaginative adepts - but the pay offs are immense.

We are too often after a rather convoluted sense of ourselves in order to exist in the world when it’s really not necessary. We were gestated with & then born with fabulous interactive multi system sensitivity & redoubtable self healing capacity & when allowed to re-gestate sufficiently in a conducive enough external environment, with the right inputs, i believe everything is healable at least until the soul/higher self is done with this lifetime.

We all need regular access to positive role models & healthy elders & we need reliable psychological supporters of this I am convinced. And we all need to be held & touched by someone who feels safe enough if that’s possible —— sans that pets count, pets completely count I can totally testify for pets. ✋👊✊

Taking Up Space - Why So Selfie

Taken from a preponderance of pondering upon my Instagram.

I was just pondering why I feel the desire to post so many selfies! And I think it’s ok, I think it’s the result of several factors including having been very ill for a very very long time & now starting to really feel better with the new information (#Audhd) especially normalising so many of my daily difficulties.

Then there is, as per the 2020 selfie post, a huge improvement in my skin & glow & skill with make-up, very much with aesthetic gains coming from #faceyoga like #Beautyshamans & #daniellecollins - so that’s something I’m proud of, that I put effort into that contributes to my feeling good in myself.

Then there is the sense of identity deficit from #BPD which while I feel is in remission still perhaps casts a shadow, understandably. And then finally, that lonesome, defuse, evasive #12housesun amplified by being in #Pisces with #Piscesrising lending even less substance to my sense of self & of being visible, “am I invisible?” Is the vibe. Am I a ghost is the vibe.

I spent a lot of time very mentally unwell on my own in this life, also a lot of time contemplating the spiritual realm of which I feel I have a exceptionally good feel for but I know staying fully embodied is healing & progressive of my nervous system trauma burden & being dissociative is not - both significantly lessening with all the wide range of nervous system tech I’m employing.

I’m so glad that being extra wordy is an Aspie/ASD1 trait 😅😂 makes sense of the urge to reach for a more elaborate descriptor all the time. 🤔😊🥰

Oh I get it - it about being willing to take up space in the world. That’s so lovely! 🥰 

I am robustly not giving a ffff & putting my noggin or whatever I see fit out there anyway, whether you want it or not. 🧑🏻‍🎤🥋 because there is space for me out there, there’s not a limit to the space nor any real valid competition about merit or worthiness.

At my worst with #anorexia I had my bed in the lounge & it was a foot too short, I am 5’5 the bed was about 4’5 & I dropped to under 7 stone several times in that decade - mad people aren’t allowed to take up space are they! I’m feeling that that was the undercurrent of #trauma #cPTSD I was stuck in. 

And then 2010-2020 I was just disappeared, socially, personally not available, bar my long 9 month bipolar high - like a ‘can you see me now’ outburst right in the middle - but mostly suffering much undx psychosis & #anxiety with seemingly no end in sight although it did end.

And so this period over-selfieing on Instagram, without much response bar a couple of friends & family is healing for me, & challenging of course because #ADHD has #RSD as a difficult component & #BPD is as sensitive to being ignored as it’s possible to be…. And I’m fine 👊🤌💜 getting no likes, occasionally it’s a bit meh but it’s definitely within the bandwidth of fine on my emotional landscape - I mean what are likes anyway - how superficial is needing that? Really? Another persons opinion of you is more valid to you than how you feel about yourself - no way, I absolutely think not. The only person I want to impress is me.

I am reproducing this over from my Instagram where it unfolded to my blog - this place where I have links to every useful natural method & tech & substance that has helped me unravel my lifelong nervous system distress. 

#audhd #bipolar1 #bipolarrecovery #bpdrecovery

Medicinal Mushrooms for Nervous System & Brain Repair

 I’m not going to do a full on academic overview, there’s many many out there, I will just link in some relevant bits. But it’s a personal blog & I wanted to say I’ve been back on some high strength Medicinal Mushroom powders after several years & I’m really really enjoying it.

I’ve been on nervous system & brain repair Lions Mane & anti cancer, anti inflammation Chaga for a few months now & recently added cellular energy boosting & anti-aging Cordyceps to great effect. 

This is a nice article on the best medicinal mushrooms for brain - https://mushroominsider.com/medicinal-mushrooms-for-brain/ & you will see I have personally swapped out Reishi, the Queen of Relaxation for Chaga, the King of Energy at the moment & here’s a nice blog piece arguing for the benefit of a balance of opposites by taking both https://tamimteas.com/blogs/mushroom-tea/can-i-take-chaga-and-reishi-together.

Cordyceps is also a high energy mushroom with purportedly great benefits post menopause. This is a lovely blog piece with all the details of the top 3  https://blog.curativemushrooms.com/top-3-medicinal-mushrooms-to-improve-brain-function

Lastly here is Dr Axe on Chaga - https://draxe.com/nutrition/chaga-mushroom/. Reading through my own links now I’m going to include Reishi as a 4th if I possibly can because increasing your own bodies capacity to relax is ultimately the biggest healer of them all. 🙌

The Human Garage - 15 minute plus 45 Minute Full Body Stress Reset: Self-Care Fascial Manoeuvres

This stuff is amazing - go & read the comments 😄😍💪🤩

The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel Van Der Kolk

So I read this famous work on PTSD & trauma in the spring as well as listening to it on Audible as this really helps me to concentrate if I can listen & read at the same time. It’s quite a hefty tome, & it’s not an easy read but I was struck by the remedies section toward the end which recommend several things especially & most notably Neurofeedback & EMDR as the best fastest options for moving through trauma. 

So I wanted to make sure people know that Isochronic tone music is basically very close to being a safe, soft Neurofeedback method without all the expensive equipment etc - it’s a brainwave entrainment tool that you have to consciously self assess how you are responding & adjust accordingly to use beneficially & theraputically.

Coincidentally, I had already instigated what I call diy micro self EMDR plus Isochronic Tones to good affect on a daily basis a year previously to reading Bessels book. I’m sure that working one-to-one with an EMDR trained therapist would be terrific & much much faster etc but when I last tried to get help for my daughter a) they said our mental health pictures were too difficult 🧐🥺 & b) they were charging stupid amounts of money per hour which seems scandalous to me for such a simple technique that is freely outin the public domain, simply requiring a basic supportive therapy backdrop for best outcomes.