As someone whose whole adult life has centred around seemingly meaningless suffering I can see a couple of left field spiritual angles to expand on what David is saying here which I think may be helpful to others who are living through similarly apparently pointless suffering.
When someone’s life of deep suffering is seen by others less afflicted the perceiver is being offered the opportunity to experience & develop empathy & compassion for the sufferer & for suffering in general & also they will likely feel appreciation for the comparative absence of such a level of pain in their own lives. Thus our heavy, imo self chosen, karmic loads are of innate service & benefit to others by the provision of such contrast.
Secondly, and this is quite left field; the relational harm commonly done to others by brain/mind/nervous system disordered people often results in, either sooner or later, an accelerated path to self knowledge, self empowerment & therefore ultimately greater self actualisation in the other person. Arguably far more concretely than without that damage rather like a bone break that repairs itself even stronger.
When someone’s life of deep suffering is seen by others less afflicted the perceiver is being offered the opportunity to experience & develop empathy & compassion for the sufferer & for suffering in general & also they will likely feel appreciation for the comparative absence of such a level of pain in their own lives. Thus our heavy, imo self chosen, karmic loads are of innate service & benefit to others by the provision of such contrast.
Secondly, and this is quite left field; the relational harm commonly done to others by brain/mind/nervous system disordered people often results in, either sooner or later, an accelerated path to self knowledge, self empowerment & therefore ultimately greater self actualisation in the other person. Arguably far more concretely than without that damage rather like a bone break that repairs itself even stronger.
I realise this is an incredibly contentious & controversial stance. Also people with these kinds of conditions can be completely unaware of the trauma they cause to others or if aware are unable to control the impulses involved, & suffer greatly at that lack. This control requires great work & can only happen after enough awareness has arisen…… this is not straightforward when there is brain/nervous system damage.
This makes me conclude that opting to be a ‘baddie” can be a powerful contribution to the drama necessary to spur evolution in others, this fact may considerably offset future karma. Think Soul Contracts. Further, a life spent dealing with a very heavy negative burden, if fought well, ultimately will result in an accelerated burning off of karma.
It’s a huge risk taking on a strenuous karmic burden of this nature, I do not believe all lives are this full on, you are putting yourself in jeopardy of creating more karma if you do not turn inwards & heal yourself. As soon as we are fully conscious that we are causing harm to others & once we isolate the impulses/mechanisms involved & are actually able to chose otherwise, we are absolutely obligated to do so, so as not to generate more karma.
It is absolutely your duty to grow in insight into the machinations of your illness despite the incontrovertible fact that insight is hard to build because necessary brain structures are lacking & impaired.
Redirecting yourself intentionally towards hope will start to recreate these structures…… yes, belief is absolutely necessary & belief is cultivated one positive thought at a time & by consistently refuting the inner lies that insist everything is broken, as humanly & compassionately as possible. ✊🏻🙌💗
