Hi 👋 I’m Sonja I have late dx Bipolar 1 & Borderline Personality Disorder both in remission by natural & lifestyle plus very very late dx/very recent Inattentive ADHD & Autism, (History of PTSD/cPTSD/GAD) Dx at 49 with Bipolar & BPD at 52 & #AuDHD just this year! All my belated diagnoses have helped me as maps to manage this extreme combination of conditions. Never medicated, never hospitalised, my blogs contain a distillation of the natural means i’ve found useful to date. This is a new blog as I feel like I’m a new person now that I’ve finally got all the pieces I need to make sense out of my broken/different physiology, nervous system & psychology.

Tuesday, October 24, 2023

Are you the Psychosis or the Watcher of the Psychosis

 This is not the blog I said I’d write on instagram yesterday- I just don’t have time to do that idea justice right now, soon hopefully Ive been making notes - that one was simply about the relative impermeability of the brain & nervous system dysfunction & pain of ADHD & Autism versus the innate healability of the trauma based mental illnesses ie in my case Bipolar & BPD which I’ve moved mountains in my non med self management of, before & since diagnosis.

This was just a brief note, a reminder for a friend. I’ve lived at length with the despair, disarray & inner destruction, sometimes outer destruction that comes with extended bouts of Psychosis many times in my life without any support whatsoever. And I say this with complete confidence, it cannot harm you or make you do anything if you, as far as possible, you just observe the ffffer. 

It’s why madness is a ladder to great self knowledge, because when you stay present & detached ala Buddhism no resistance detachment not the auto dissociation bs which is a programme all with PDs run easily when in trouble, you win. Any body awareness you can maintain is a bonus.

Speak soon.

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